perspective

Last friday after my ranting post my amazing mil came over to hang with the babes so I could go for a run. and run I did! It felt so incredibly good, and truth be told I ran further than I generally would because I wasn't ready to come back to the reality I ran from in the first place.

I don't have a working ipod right now so I have been running without music. Have you tried this? I think we all get hooked on music to push us through...but there's something spiritual about running in silence. The sounds all around, children playing in backyards, birds chirping, the wind rustling through the trees, even the sound of your feet hitting the pavement can be rhythmic and...soothing. It's my prayer time I suppose. So, I cleared my head while adrenaline charged through my body. I talked to God about all my frustrations and "growing pains" as a still relatively new mommy. I know He already knew my heart and thoughts, but I spoke them again for communion.

The word perspective kept coming to mind. Just keep perspective Lauren. It's all in the way you view your life, your children, your marriage and your choices. Perspective. After 45 min of sweating and fresh air I was ready to come home and see my loves. I got the break I needed.

I walked in the door and Brooklyn came tearing from the other side of the room screaming "mommy" as loud as she could only to trip on the top step and land head first into the wall. Thus unraveling completely all over again. "Perspective". I scooped her up and gave her what she needed, comfort.

Matt had called me earlier to tell me to be ready because he and my amazing sil (who volunteered to watch the kids) had arranged a surprise date night for us. So blessed. So, I showered and got ready for my hot date. Only to leave the house and feel like I was going to be sick within 30 min of being gone. The rest of the night is a painful blurr. We did not really get our date night, instead I got to spend the entire night hunched over the toilet with severe vomiting (and other unpleasantness) yuck. Perspective, it was the thought and incredible gesture that counts. My amazing husband and sister in law love me enough to recognize this mama's need for a respite and for that I am blessed beyond words.

This week is off to a fantastic start. Thank you (you know who you are) who reached out to offer support and told me you're praying for me and gave encouraging words, it has helped immensely. Brooklyn has been a dream today. I have my health back- wahoo- Ben slept almost entirely through the night for the first time last night 8-3:30, and it's valentines day so I'm going to love on my fam all day and night! We're having fresh cracked crab with roasted blue cheese potatoes, ceasar salad with home made dressing and for dessert chocolate chip cookies, per matt and brooklyn's request. mmmm.